You would think that after so long, such things wont affect me anymore.
Sigh. Honestly felt pretty emo just now doing nothing. Damn happy that my batch is gonna ORD the hell out of here and stuff, but at the same time, i feel that all i've achieved this past two years is a higher standard of performance on my clarinet. And at what cost? Unfit, stupid, pretty anti social. No wonder people say that bandsmen are geeks and outcasts. That said I'm glad I did learn something.
My ORD function is coming up. Just over a year ago, it seemed to take forever. Now its my turn. Will be leaving behind a lifestyle that I love yet hate, and moving on with life.
As I ord, i'll probably never touch classical music or orchestral transcripts again, even though now i think they are pretty damn interesting.
To the people in band (who actually read this) I know I'm a fucker to work with, but hope you all understand its for the band that i push myself and you all to higher levels of excellence drills wise. Yeah i know i suck at music but i do put in the effort. Band B!
Oxidative Phosphorylation Miah used his Sharingan at 12:00:00 AM