when you have lots of time in a small room your mind tends to wander. topic for today was: what exactly is love in our modern day context?
if you hate gp u can go off now. if u are ok with reading a lot of crap from me carry on.
from young we (catholics) are taught that love involves sacrifice, dedication, and commitment. its what makes this crazy world more bearable. what makes us look perfect in our partners eyes. not really perfect. ok not perfect. more like accept our human frailties. thats my ideal love?
the type of love projected to us youngsters of the mtv generation is more... different. its more like physical contact, making out, screwing around. instant gratuition. its shallow, short-lived and often just an illusion. yet many of us prefer to choose the latter to the former.
why? i personally dont know why i do so myself. (no the above statement doesnt mean i went around screwing people) is it because its the easier way out? twice already i jumped into a relationship just for the sake of it without thinking whether i can commit. twice i had someone loving me and i took that for granted. twice i let someone special down.
its times like this that i realise what a despo fuck i am for jumping in without thinking. for jumping in for lust (or a perversion of love) instead of real love. for thinkiung that i love the person. for making things a big mess and eventually hurting both parties.
times like this i decide to lay off relationships till i am matured enough to commit and to love.
till then. i am just miah, child of God and musician in saf band. friend to anyone who needs a friend and clown for the public. till then. one day i will grow up. one day. watch me learn from my mistakes and come out a better man.
Oxidative Phosphorylation Miah used his Sharingan at 6:48:00 PM