a friend said to me that if i wanted to continue having friends in church, i should show face more. but what a messed up situation i am in.
people who used to be friends are friends no longer, cold and hurtful.
people who used to not be friends now think i am f-ed up and i know there are people who do not like me.
i dont see why i should be going and showing face if all that will happen is that i will spoil everybody's day. wats the point of going back there just to feel left out. i dont belong. everyone is too good too nice. too cold. i am too lowly to be with them. i just cant commit anymore. its meaningless. throw the old away and embrace the new. i have lost my usefulness for the cause. i dont shine. i dont stand out. when ppl need smth done they wont come to me. i am the last person to approach cos i am useless. everyone has gone on. only i remain. and i feel alone.
to my true friends who have stuck it with me. i really dont want our friendships to end. and i thank you for holding me up when i am down. thanks for being the christ in my life.
yeah. wat a way to spend christmas eve.
Oxidative Phosphorylation Miah used his Sharingan at 1:53:00 PM